Caleb’s Birthday

Today was a good day. I didn’t know what to expect on this first anniversary of having Caleb. I woke up this morning, not with a deep sadness, but with a confidence, an assurance, feeling at peace. I’m not sure how to explain it except that everything felt like it was exactly how it should be.

There have been many times in the last year that I have not felt that. Times I wished I could change everything. Times I couldn’t handle reality and wished there was a way to escape. But today felt like a milestone of healing.

Being pregnant now certainly makes it easier to handle Caleb’s birthday. But even if I wasn’t pregnant that wouldn’t change the truths I’ve learned. God has still taken my mourning and turned it into dancing, my sorrows He has turned to joy. He has taken my hopeful faith and turned it into confident assurance.

We heard from family and friends on the phone or by email. Thank you for thinking of us. Moms are famous for bragging about their children – the funny things the toddler says or the good grades the kids are getting. It’s no different with me and Caleb. I just want his life to have mattered and for people to remember him. Thank you for sharing with me the impact Caleb has made on your life. It makes it easier to keep walking this journey of trusting God and knowing He is faithful.

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2 thoughts on “Caleb’s Birthday

  1. Good morning Debbie and Jeff. Caleb’s life will always matter no matter how much time goes by. He has brought so many blessings to our family and I’m sure lots of other friends and families too! What a blessing to know that those of us who have accepted Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior have the assurance of being reunited with our loved ones in heaven and I believe our faith keeps us going! Every day is a gift from God and we anxiously await the blessing of another grandchild. (His mercies are new every morning) We know your journey has not been easy and we appreciate all you have done and are doing in Caleb’s memory and for his brother who is safely inside you. We are so excited to see you two become parents to this new life because you two will be the very BEST parents ever! Thanks for being great examples of what a strong faith in our Lord can do. May He continue to comfort you, strengthen you and give you His peace every day of your lives. We love you! Mom and Dad Bope

  2. God chooses only His best to be examples to others. You have certainly NOT let Him down. You have shown others what a real Christian Faith is all about. He said He would never leave us and would be there ” through it all”. Others will gain SOOOOO much strength from your courage. Thank you for your story and uplifting updates. We are all praying for you ….Be NOT Afraid..I go before you ALWAYS…Come follow Me and I will give you peace. Love, Aunt GAY

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