Most of the time when I write these blogs I am in a good place mentally and spiritually. I’ve been encouraged by your comments and just the fact that you’re reading my blog, but I don’t want you to get the wrong idea. I’m certainly not perfect, my faith isn’t perfect, and I struggle just like everyone else.
- I thought everything was going to be perfect with this pregnancy, until I needed a cerclage.
- I have no baby things in the house, but I’m nervous to register for stuff.
- I question every little thing I feel – baby kicking, stomach gurgling – and wonder if everything is ok.
But I’ve had to take all my worries, doubt, and love for this baby, and hold them in open hands, letting God take it from me. He wants to bear our burdens. They’re too heavy for us. I’ve had to surrender this baby, knowing God loves him more than I do, and trust him to God’s faithful care.
God has been faithful. He has given me peace. He takes my worry and gives me wisdom. He takes my doubt and reminds me to trust and pray.
Maybe you wonder why God gives us good news and hasn’t given it to you. I don’t know. We don’t often know the reasons behind our circumstances. But I promise you, you will never regret surrendering to the Lord.
Lay down your worries and doubts, your past, your sins, your heartache. Let God carry your load.
“Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30
I’ve been thinking about you and praying for you ever since I got an email from Jeff Cagwin saying you were at the hospital possibly in pre-term labor. Obviously, words cannot express the pit in my stomach when I read those words. Tears came to my eyes and I begged God for mercy. I am so thankful that little baby Chun is still safely in your womb, growing and delighting. I will continue to pray for peace and strength for you and safety for the baby during this long season of bed rest. The wisdom the Lord is giving you as you are in His presence is already pouring forth. Praying for all 3 of you! With love,